You think i care?

i know like you are straightforward and everything.
but can you stop saying that you hate me in front of everyone and me?
maybe im being too sensetive.
or maybe you are not sensetive.
well.
i dunno what is the purpose of this post at all.
since if the person sees it she will not know that im talking about her.
like WTF.
you know what she always does?
she looks at me in this manner that i cant stand . then i ask her wat happen?
she shakes her head.
anybody,
everybody wont understand.
remember thats what friends are for?
keep smiling.
keep shining.
how can i ?
its like we are always okay on the surface and stuff.
i know you hate me.
i think some ppl know also.
but do you have to do this?
i know im hateable.
i cant stand it anymore.
one day i think if i cannot stand it anymore i will scream or fight it out with you.
you wont even know what the fuck happened.
like you will suddenly say: "hanle, actually you know you very..."
then you will like ... nevermind lah.
WHATS THE FREAKING POINT OF THE FIRST SENTENCE IF YOU DUN WANT TO TELL ME ANYTHING?
you think i care?
fine. i care a lot.
i look at you as one of my okay good friends.
but why must you do this to me?
i offered something to you that time.
and you refused.
then you used a proverb to describe me.
sometimes it doesnt pay to be kind.
gor taught me today that one shouldnt bring one's unhappiness to the people around them.
its enough to have one person to be sad.
but so why am i having this post?
i guess i need a place to vent my frustration.
maybe i'm gonna have a private blog.
then i can vent out all i want without thinking about offending other ppl.